Emonyettt tibe2... ;(

Hari ni i keje mlm..tibe2 rs sayu..emonyetttt sungguhhh..rs nak nangis..agaknye byk sgt pkir kot..tibe2 terpikir betul ke nak wat ivf ni..camne kalu x berjaya..am i strong enough??tapi sume tu kuasa tuhan kan..kita just usaha & tawakkal..yg lain sume berserah kpdNya..

Kadang2 bile dgr lagu emo2 neh..sure akan mengalir gak air mateku ini..padahal xde kaitan pon kan..huhu..adeh..nway hopefully my journey with ivf will be successful..cant wait to have our own children..well utk mengisi kesunyian, we have 3 cats at home..sgt manja..xdela rs sunyi sgt..luv them so much..kalu ditakdirkan i preggy with ivf..will make sure my babies sume pon syg kucing kt umh ni :) come on..be happy!!!! positifkan diri..jgn sedih2..


Ya Allah..adakah aku sudah bersedia utk melalui semua ini..ko permudahkanlah..kuatkanlah kami..bgnkanlah kami..permudahkanlah process ivfku ini & semoga aku berjaya pregnant dgn ivf. ini...jauhilah kami dr benda2 yg xbaik..sesungguhnya kepdmu kami berserah & meminta pertolongan...aminnn

2nd appointment for IVF/ICSI

27th Nov 2014 - 2nd appointment for IVF/ICSI

Appointment pagi tadi dlm kol 12.30pm..masuk je blik doc..terus doc suh baring wat tvs...then nmpkla a few eggs kecik je..belah kanan kiri nmpk cam ade 4 each.., doc cam riso my eggs xresponse sgt..mmm i pon riso..last jumpe my DH kene wat SA..alhamdulillah doc ckp suma normal for my DH...i pon terkejut because before this mmg sgt low..maybe sbb kene pakse makan multivitamin and also yg i perasaan dia xstress at work at the moment..hahaha sbb xbyk project..byk wfh..haippp..saba je le..tp thats a good thing kan..yeahh :D hepi for him

So skrg ni doc riso kt i..my AMH is 11.30 which should be normal..tp doc tkot my eggs xresponse sgt and i need double injection so that my eggs response well...mmm kita ikut ajer...

So doc listkan ubat yg i kene amik:

1) Pergoveris - 13

2) Orgalutron - 1

3) Suprefact - 1

4) Ovidrel - 1

5) Utrogostron - 4

Total : RM6145

So doc pesan, kalu period da dtg bgtau dia..then br die decide when to start inject pergoveris..


Ya Allah..permudahkanlah ya Allah..

CD19 - 1st appointment for IVF/ICSI

31st Oct 2014 - CD19 - 1st appointment for IVF/ICSI (throwback)

Alhamdulillah..periodku datang jugak akhirnye on Monday -13th Oct, so terus wat appointment jumpe my gynae on Friday -31st Oct (CD19).

Cam biase, mmg kene tvs to check on my telur and rahim..alhamdulillah my rahim cleared from polyps etc..tp doc ckp my eggs lmbt membsr..nmpk cam br CD8..pdahal da CD19..and i havent ovulate lg that month...mmm..haippp

Anyway lps tu discus ngn doc..bila boleh start IVF..my gynae tanya when will be my next period..based on apps yg i pkai..i be should getting my next period earliest on 20th Nov..biase dia jd cam 1 week from last period..tak tentu..so my doc decided to plan for my next period..senang skit nk plan for IVF/ICSI..so i kena amik 2 ubat 2 times a day:

Norcolut - 2 biji sehari start from 7th Nov -30th Nov 2014
Progynova - 2 biji strat 15th November 2014- TBA

Doc nak my next period to come around 3rd Dec 2014...so my stimulation for IVF/ICSI will start awal Dec..insyaAllah...

So next appointment will be on 27th Nov 2014 (Thursday) utk discuss psal ubat etc

Ya Allah,  permudahkanlah jalan kami untuk mendapat zuriat kami sendiri ya Allah...sesungguhnya engkaulah yg maha berkuasa dlm mencipta sesuatu..engkaulah yg maha pemurah lg maha penyayang..permudahkan jalan kami dlm IVF ini..aminnn..

Oh myyy...Hysteroscopy & dnc ;(

It has been awhile...a month already after i went through operation to remove polyp..actually planning for IVF last Sept..tapi semua itu kuasa tuhan..last checkup on last August..my gynae nmpk ade polyp size 6mm dlm rahimku...sob..sob...disbbkn planning for ivf..doc ckp rahim kene sehat..xboleh ade benda yg halang dr implantation before proceed with IVF..so we decided to do hysteroscopy and also dnc on 10th Sept aritu..so ivfku postpone...br je masuk keje lastweek..mmm rs cam nk benti keje je skrg...haipppp

Nway my operation went well..alhamdulillah..so our plan is to do IVF on this coming November insyaAllah..doakan semuanye berjalan dgn lancar & dipermudahkan..amin

So right now, supplement i took only multivitamins, vit D and acid folic je..doc xbg amik benda lain sbb takot kacau..mm cam polyp ni doc ckp mayb something yg i mkn yg trigger polyp tumbuh..mm i dont know what..so any other supplements sume i da stop..huhuhuh..byk estrogen also can trigger polyp kan..

So sape2 yg da start treatment for ttc..jgnla tunggu lame2 br nk cek lik..last 4 years...i mmg xde polyp..everything normal except i'm pcosers..so im not so lucky this time..tetibe ade..tp xpela tu semua dugaan hidup kita kan..so redha je la..

Skrg tgh pantang lg sbb wat dnc..so i avoid seafood/sayur&buah yg sejuk je so far..yg len i hentam mkn..doc ckp xyah pantang..tp i takot..heheh...

Next appointment with my gynae is on CD18..my period may be a bit late due to last operation kot..so tunggu je la...hopefully polyp xtumbuh lik coz doc ckp my rahim cam senang nk nek balik polypnye..mmm semoge dijauhkan...amin...

1st update in 2014

Its been awhile..lame gile xupdate blog ni..nk dekat setahun da since my last treatment IUI..ape yg kami wat skrg adalah enjoying our life..konon2 nk kuruskn bdn..tp berat xtrun2..but we managed to kurgkn mkn nasi..no nasi for dinner..just simple dinner macam ayam bakar n saute vege..okla kan..for the first time DH join me as well.. ;)

Our planning for this year..to do IVF this Sept/Oct 2014..insyaAllah...semoge dimurahkan rezeki dan dipermudahkan urusan kami semua..amin

So we have another 4 months to go from now on..kene start mkn healthy food..supplement etc..mmg skrg da stat mkn supplement

-multivitamin surbex
-acid folic
-habbatussauda
-pati delima gulsan
-madu
-soil qaseh

Hopefully ada la rezeki nanti..amin

13dpiui bfn

Finally arini 13dpiui..da result is negative ;(

Tgh hari td pi hospital wat bhcg test..and da result turn out to be im not pregnant..mmm xde rezki lg..so period akan dtg anytime..doc sruh stop mkn duphaston da..so far arini sakit kepala...tu je kot..

Pastu cam nk ade keputihan skit..abit creamy..skali je...cptla period mai..xsaba nk start new cycle..

Pdanle last night before tido beria i nanges..emo xtentu psai..pdahal belum test pape lg..so itu petanda rupenye..mmg slaluye before i period..i will be emo..suke nanges tibe2..ekekeke..

So next plan? Not sure yet..maybe will try for 2nd iui..tu pon lps period mai..hopefully my bhcg lmbt skit..tu yg dpt less then 2 tu..mmm just wait n see..

Ya Allah, aku redha dengan ketentuanmu..permudahkanlah dan kuatkan aku dlm menghadapi segalanya..amin..

12dpiui

Kejapnya masa berlalu..arini da 12dpiui..takottttnyeeeer!!!!hehehe

Nway mlm td mimpi pelik..xpsal2 mimpi my fren eksiden pastu kete terbakar..adehh..lawak betuii..pastu terjage kol 4.30am sbb kaki cramp..huhuhu..

Xde pape sgt rs arini..just bloated skit start ptg2..cramp on off..backpain skit..biase sume neh ptg br dtg.adehh..

Mmm, kalu ikutkan CD30 i will get my period after mkn clomid..if xsuccessful la..so that means esok..huhu..arap2 xla..sok pg kene pi hospital cek bhcg..hopefully ade good news..insyaAllah..amin

Skrg ni suke dgr ni, Hasbunallah@Yoga Al-Ghazali featuring Ajeng xtau nape..tp cam bes..hihi

11dpiui

Arini da 11dpiui..scaryyyynye..lg 2 hari utk cek bhcg..omg!!takotnyee..

Mmmm symptom arini xde sgt..bloated skit je..cramp xde la plak..tp biase ptg ke mlm br rs cramp sengal2 bdn..ntahle..arap2 ade la lg rs sengal2 itu..hehehe..patutnye org len xmo rs sengal2..sakit2..tp kalu ade rs tu lg..bleh la still berharap lg..heheheh

Nway arini mood ok..xbyk sgt keje kt opis..so xtensen..relaks je..smlm membe ade post doa taubat kt fb..dr smlm smpai ari ni i dok dgr kt youtube : Doa Taubat , kalu dgr rase sayu je..sob sob..bleh nanges ;(

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, ampunkanlah dosa kami suami isteri..
Kurniakan kami zuriat keturunan yg terbaik dr sisimu ya Allah..
Kurniakan kami anak-anak yg dapat membahagiakan kami di dunia dan di akhirat..insyaAllah..
Jadikanlah kami menjadi ibu bapa yg baik yg dpt mendidik anak-anak kami ke arah jlnmu yg Allah..
Sesungguhnya engkaulah maha berkuasa, maha pengampun, maha pemurah lg maha penyayang..aminn..

10dpiui

Arini 10dpiui..mm takotnye nk test upt..my fren ckp 8dpiui da bleh cek sbarnyer...tp xpela..DH suh tunggu dulu..cek bile kene wat bhcg rabu ni..mmm..

Nway dr smlm emosi xstabil..senang betui kuar air mata..huhu..smlm ms nk tido pon nangis..xtau nape..haissshhh..

Mm last night rs cramp on off time mlm..backpain..perut rs full..rs nk muntah pon ade..tp xmuntah..
Pg ni plak lapa..bloated skit..bdn rs panas..bgn lmbt..penat sgt kot..

9dpiui

Ari ni 9dpiui..cam biase sentiasa lapar je..bgn tido rs lapa smpai rs cam nk muntah tp xmuntahle.so minum air kosong then tido lik..last night be4 tido buang ayak 2 kali..then terjaga plak pg td be4 kol 6am..rs nk buang air..

Bdn rs panas2 skit..cramp xde la plak..tp ade rs backpain skit..bloated skit kot..tender nipple 3 x lps kol 1am..mmm tu je kot arini..

4 hari lg utk cek bhcg..takotnyeeeee..ya Allah permudahkanlah..amin

8dpiui

Mmm 8dpiui xrs pape just tired..sleepy..ade skit cam rs kepala berat..huhu..cramp on off sume xde..tender breast pon xde..bloated pon xde..huhu..risonye..dale pg td susah nk buang air besaq..huhu..tp temp cam nek skit..sbb rs bdn panas..

Tinggal 5 days lg...ari rabu ni 22nd May2013 kene pi wat bhcg & cek progestrone...chaiyoookkkkk

7dpiui

Arini da 7dpiui..Tinggal 7days je lg to complete 2ww..huhu takotnye..

Arini bgn tido pelik sgt sbb bdn sejukk..huhu..temp drop..walopon xcek gune termometer..tp bleh tau bdn bile panas or sejuk..huhu..takan sbb tido dlm aircon kot..coz mmg ari2 kami tido dlm aircon..tp wat timer la for 3 hours je..huhu..ade gak google2 cr info psai temp drop..org ckp psai implantation drip..Last night sgt sakit pinggang n crampp..nk smyg pon msih terase..mungkin nk stat menempel kot..hihi..

Mm kt opis..cpt rs lapar..bekpes biskut cicah milo..pastu tgh hari mkn nasi lauk ayam..amik sayur byk..ptg plak siap mkn ptg..waffle ngn orange jus n buah tembikai susu...

Perut seperti biase bloated..cramp on off..tender breast once..pastu xde da..sakit pale kekdg je..sakit blkg..ni da stat ngantukkkk..oh yeah..td pi toilet ade cm creamy skit je..skali wipe..then xde da..Huhuh ade rs nk muntah kalu lmbt mkn..n lps mkn.. Tp xmuntahla...

6dpiui

Arini 6dpiui..still kene bedrest..pg td mkn roti john..DH beli dinner utk last night..xhabis mkn so simpan dlm peti..sedapp gak..pastu took duphaston sebijik..then kol 11am stat bedrest..tido...smpai kol 2.30pm..tu pon terjaga sbb sakit perutttt nk cirit..pelik sungguhh,mkn ape tah yg wat cirit ni..huhu..

Bdn rs pnas skit2.. Ok skit sbb ujan kot ari ni..bloated tetap ade..cramp on off..ohh yeah last night first time terjaga kol 3am sbb sakit pale..huhuhu..then pakse tido..pastu terjage plak kol 5.20am coz nk buang air kecik..

Lunch mkn cereal je..huhu..sbb mls nk msak..xpela mlm kang suh DH pi tapau nasi..xpon goreng ayam..lapa la plak ni..haisssshhh

5dpiui

Arini 5dpiui..ari ni mc for bedrest as advised by doc...pagi td bgn bekpes cereal..amik duphaston sbiji..then rehat skjap..pastu bedrest trus tertido..DH sanggup work from home ari ni nak jage i kt umha..yela..i mls nk msak..nk rehat je 2 hari ni..hihi..ciann DH..

Kol 1.30pm DH gerak nk lunch..heheh..dia siap msak nasi..then tapau lauk kt kedai..sedappppp he knows whats my feveret..ikaan keli msak pedas..patut xbleh mkn food yg pedas2 time cam ni..huhuh..tp xpela..i redha je..nwayyyy arini mkn bykkk siap tambah lg..then lps tu amik duphaston sebijik..and now tgh rehat2 tgk tv smpai baring atas sofa..hihi

Arini prut bloated..cramp on off...tender breast kdang2..hotflush sentiasa ada..tu je kot..xde plak pening pale...mmm semoge dipermudahkan..amin..

Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kami anak anak yg soleh dan solehah yg dpt membahagiakan kami di dunia dan di akhirat...jdkanlah kami suami isteri menjadi ibu bapa yg baik yg dpt membimbing anak-anak kami ke arah jalanmu..Ya Allah..sesungguhnya kaulah yg maha berkuasa maha mencipta maha pemurah lg maha penyayang..permudahkan segalanya..aminn...

4dpiui

Arini 4dpiui - 13th May 2013

Smlm 3dpiui, prut sgt bloated..asyikk terkentuttt..ngn perut bunyi..perut rs cam full je..skrg ni cam xlalu makan sgt..kalu beli tapau..sure xhabis..DH yg kene habiskan..bdn sgt rs panas..xtaule rumah i yg panas ke bdn yg panas..msuk toilet pon rs panas..da mandi pon rs panas..tp xamik temp pon sbb da rosak :( pastu tender breast skali mlm tu..

Ari ni plak, perut rs full..msuk opis bekpes biskut cicah air milo je..then minum air bykk..dua kali da pg toilet membuang..hihi..dale sejukkkk gile kt opis ni..pastu cam pening2 skit..

Mlm ni plak makan bykkkk...siap tambah..tah ptg td start lapar..da mkn kol 4.30pm..nasi goreng..kol 8pm mkn nasi ayammm plak..haippp..mmm bdn still rs panas..

2dpiui

Ari ni 2dpiui - 11th May 2013..setakat ni xde rs ape sgt..just rs cramp skit2..kanan kiri ari2.. Tp bkn slalu..on off..pastu bdn rs cam panas..seperti demam..dr last nigt..

Keputihan cam da ok..ade la stain cam cheese ptg semlm..tp mlm da ok..so blehla bd..doc da psan suh bersama ari jumaat ngn ahad then stop..ubat canesten ade lg 1 nk kene amik..so that will be tonight..pastu ari sel stat amik duphaston..

Nway skrg ni ade la rs cam penat skit..rs ngntukk je..smlm lik keje..lps mandi..baring atas katil pastu terlelap skjap..

Alhamdulillah lps wat iui aritu..tiap hari wat smyg hajat..nk doa byk2..insyaAllah..Semoga IUI kami berjaya..amin

CD17 - IUI

Smpai hospital at 8.30am..

8.40am - msuk ivf lab..utk sperm washing
9.30am - br berjaya kuarkan, nurse ckp iui will be on 10.45am..sperm washing only took 1 hour
10.15am - tunggu doc pggl
10.45am - tunggu turn & sperm smpai
11.30am - IUI


My DH took nearly 1 hour utk kuarkan..adeh..nurse siap suh i pi tlg speed up..huhuh..well my DH ckp kalu i ade lg die stress..hahah..so thats why i xmsuk same dlm blik yg dsediakan..nway blik tuh so far okla..dlm blik tu..ade 2 blik khas and 1 toilet..very privacy..org len mmg xmsuk pon blik tuh..

After da settle at 9.30am..nurse suh naik before 10.45 am for IUI coz 10.30am ade patient len wat IUI gak..so kami pon pi bekpes dulu..kol 10.15am br pi klinik..tunggu turn..uwaa minum byk sgt air smapi rs xtahan nk kencing...huhuh

At 11.15am doc pggl msuk..doc ckp ni minum air byk sgt ni..then doc msukkn speculum..asyik beralih je..then try lg same je..so doc suh pi buang air kecik dulu skit..jgn habiskan...

So seb baik dlm blik doc ade toilet..pila buang air kecik..br la lega & selesa...doc msukkn speculum then tiub..xjalan..then wat method ke 2 gune tiub yg keras skit..br ok..alhamdulillah seb baik..ms wat iui neh doc akan scan perut gak..utk tengok tiub tu pi mane..then bile da dlm rahim..br msukkn sperm..mmg nmpk mengalir msuk..hehehe..before die msukkn doc suh bc bismilillah..then suh jgn keraskn bdn etc so that sperm xikut kuar..IUI ni amik mase 15 minit je..so dlm kol 11.30am da settle..

Nway ms wat iui tu..doc found out i ade keputihan fungus..mm pelik gak sbb rs cam xde je before this..doc ckp byk..so doc suh amik ubat canesten utk 2 hari..ubat ni kene msuk ikut bwh..Ubat progynova da xyah amik..

Doc pesan kene bersama esok CD18 and CD20.. Then stop..pastu ari selasa CD22 kene stat mkn Duphaston utk 15 hari 3 x sehari....utk kuatkan rahim..then ari khamis 22nd May 2013 wat blood test utk cek hcg & progestron utk tau berjaya pregnant ke x..

So arini stat 2ww..

Total payment : RM1212

Follow up with gynae CD15

CD15 -7th May 2013

Appointment dgn gynae utk cek telur n rahim..alhamdullilah telur belah kanan da 21mm..tp yg belah kiri..Yg ade 3 telur tuh..xbyk sgt naik..2 telur br 15-16mm..huuhhu..sedeh gak sbnarnye coz kami nk wat iui..so kalu ade beberape telur yg matang..chances to get pregnant lg tinggi since my DH sperm sgt rendah :(

Any how..kami tetap bersyukur..doc ckp xpela ade satu pon xpe..pastu tnye kami nk wat natural..ke iui?doc suggest better wat iui since mmg susah skit nk pregnant natural if low sperm..n my endometrium pon ok 8.8..so kalu tunggu next cycle..takot jd lain plak since on my side sume cam ok..

CD3 aritu ade amik blood test, doc bgtau result walopon i pcos..but its a minor one..my insulin still normal..biasenye org yg ade pcos..insulin dia tinggi & senang nk gugur if pregnant..so hopefully bile i pregnant sume okla nanti..takotnyee...

So since ade telur 21mm and endometrium rahim da 8.8, doc suh cucuk ovidrel utk pecahkan telur..doc actually bg pilihan nak gune ovidrel 6500iu or pregnyl 5000iu...disbbkan i kene cucuk mlm CD15 at 10.30pm...so i decided to take ovidrel..sbbnye senang..ubat sume da ade dlm pencucuk tu.. kite just perlu cucuk je..So IUI will be 36 hours after cucuk ovidrel..so will be at 10.30am on 9th May 2013.. InsyaAllah...

Doc suh continue amik progynova 3x sehari..tp nanti ms da wat iui..doc suh ingtkan..n tnye dia bile nk kene stop...baek doc :)

Alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar, last nigh DH tolong cucuk ovidrel..sgt senang & xsakit..hehehe..kami siap google youtube how to do ovidrel shot..sgt membantu ;)

So next appointment will be CD17 - 9th May 2013 for IUI at 10.30am..tp kene pi hospital awal utk amik sperm & persediaan sume etc..at 8.30am..

Ya Allah permudahkanlah jalan kami untuk mendapatkan zuriat kami sendiri..kurniakanlah kami zuriat keturunan yg terbaik dr sisimu..sesungguhnya engkaulah yg maha berkuasa,maha mencipta, maha pemurah lg maha penyayang...maha mendgr doa hamba2 mu ini..amin


Total payment: RM348.18

Total sume setakat ni : RM 1568.58

Blood test result..appointment on CD12

Alhamdulillah da selesai mkn clomid 100mg cd3-cd7..this cycle xsehat sgt..dok batuk selsema..lebih seminggu da..so cam slalu pening pale..tp ok da skit skrg..

Smlm CD12 - 4th May 2013..appointment ngn gynae..utk tvs cek telurku..nk tgk ade respon x kt clomid...to be suprised..yeahhh byk gak yg da start growing..3 belah kanan & 1 lg belah kiri 15mm tp belum smpai tahap matang lg..n my lining rahim plak nk kene tunggu tebal skit..skrg ni 6..doc ckp kene atleast 8 keatas..so i was given progynova 2 mg utk tebalkn lining rahim..kene amik 3x a day..satu pagi,satu tgh hari and satu mlm bab kate doc..kene iku bwh je..bkn telan...

Oh yeah..me & DH da wat bood testkan..My result, doc said so far ok..but my DH, his testosterone hormon is very low..6.. Doc said normal should be around 20.. (8-20)..So doc cam bg suggestion to take ovidrel 6500iu utk nekkn hormon testosterone ni..selang 2 hari for 3 months tp tiap bulan kene p cek darah..then doc akan bg tuka ubat plak lps tuh..xtaule camne..die suh discuss dulu ngn DH..tp sbb kami cam nk stat wat IUI..doc ckp kalu SA 2 juta pon ade je patient dia IUI berjaya..so lega skit dgr doc ckp cam tu...

So doc nk jumpe lik ari selasa ni CD15 -7th May 2013 utk tvs cek lik..so kalu semua da ok CD17 -9th May 2013 insyaAllah kami akan try IUI..

Ya Allah..permudahkan segala urusan kami & kurniakanlah kami anak2 yg soleh dan solehah yg dpt mengembirakan hati kami di dunia & di akhirat..aminn..

Total payment: RM220.40

starting new cycle..

today da CD3, pagi td pi hospital pi amek blood test..i took half day leave to go there..seb baik skjap je..bwk borang siap2 yg doc bg last visit..then trus bleh amik darah..

so next appointment will be on CD12 - 4th May 2013...mm cant wait & abit scared actually, will get all the result on this date..huhuhu..hopefully all are okay..i suspected that i might have endo sbb before period mesti cam sakit belakang..smpaikn nk bgn/smyg pon rs sakit..mm hopefully xde...lets prayyyy..

Total payment : RM312